I’m sure most of us have a love-hate relationship with the
question, “where are you from?” How it is asked comes in a variety of ways. I
walked into my class the first day of the semester during my last year in
college and the professor looked at me and said you must be from Somalia. Oh
my, she was quite right because I always got, you are either Ethiopian or
Eritrean since there were many that live in the Washington, DC area. I’ll never
forget the next thing she said and I quote, “you know when God was making
bread, the first time it turned out too white, so he gave it a second try and
he left it in the oven too long so it became really dark, but the third time
just turned out right, brown, golden and pleasing to the eye. So you must be
some of the brown bunch.” I couldn’t help but laugh……..
In the states you are always reminded about the color of
your skin, whether it’s through conversations or something as simple as filling
out an application. Depending on the crowd you are with you are always labeled
somehow. In the white community, I am black, in the black community I am
African, in the African community I am Somali, and in the Somali community I
was a certain tribe. This became a role that I came to understand and accept.
When I decided to come back to Somalia and work here for a
bit, to my surprise, I quickly realized that it was a whole new ball game;
there was a different kind of categorization. It was not your usual tribal
supremacy and tribal institutionalization that I was familiar with. Rather what
I found was quite amusing, there was a new tribe called ‘Diaspora.’
During a quick outing to the local market in Garowe, the
cashier asked, “So where are you from?” With an annoyed look on my face, I said,
“Did you mean to ask me either what region am I from? or what my tribe is?” He
chuckled and said, “No. I mean what country, because you are obviously
Diaspora.”
I was taken aback by the statement because here I was in my
own country, speaking fluent Somali, dressed like the locals and this man was
telling me I was ‘Diaspora.’ I was not offended by the term Diaspora. It’s just
that the first thought that came to my mind was, so you really have not escaped
explaining where you are from.
Eventually I asked the cashier, how he came to the
conclusion that I was Diaspora. He said, simple, “Diaspora girls walk
differently compared to our local girls. It doesn’t matter if she is dressed
identical to a local girl; I can just spot you girls out. First you all walk
like you are always late for something or tight on time and you manage to walk
faster than us men. While on the other hand, our local girls walk with grace,
swaying their hips from side to side, using their left hand to hold their
garment and take their time.”
He went on to say, “It doesn’t matter if you Diasporas are
from North, South, East or West of Somalia, your dialect all sounds the same.
Diasporas don’t come back here for ‘daqan celis’ (reinvigorate one’s culture)
or help their country. They are here to make money off of us poor folks,
confuse our system by trying to introduce these foreign concepts that are too
advanced for our state at the moment. Most of you walk around with an expensive
camera that weighs too heavy on your neck, taking a picture of everything that
moves, interviewing anyone and everyone you meet, you are always documenting
things. Take these politicians for example, some of them are running for a
Governor of a region, and most likely can’t name all the districts in that
region.”
Lastly he said, “please don’t take it personal as this is
something I have observed throughout the years. I hope I didn’t offend you in
anyway.”
The ironic thing was that as soon as I walked out of that
store, I said to myself, you should write about this. I was just being told by
a stranger everything I was not. You would think, one would say ‘WOW’ she came
back because not a lot of Diasporas do once they assimilate to other cultures. This
was epic.
I thought to myself, does the rest of the Somali population
really think this way or was it just him?
One thing is for sure, I did not choose to be a Diaspora,
Somalia chose it for me. I did not choose to be seen as an outsider in my own
community, Somalia chose it for me. I did not choose to have lived in four
different countries, and adopt few other cultures, Somalia chose it for me.
Just because I enjoy taking pictures and keep a journal
does not mean I have ill intentions. Blame technology and globalization for
this. Also, all these documentations and pictures that the so called ‘Diasporas’
are taking might actually be useful once we have a central information storage
system for the country. I came to the conclusion that, if Somalia ever becomes
united and peaceful, and expats continue to come back, there will be a
Tribe
called Diaspora, his sons named America, Canada and U.K, their cousins Holland
and Belgium and their friend Suju.
2 comments:
You said it all sister we are being so discriminated by our own community & country,, you can't take your canon out for a sightseeing because they think you will sell these pics for the NGOs to your benefit>> only God knows from where this idea came.
Even if you speak fluent somali they say " you don't understand" as if you kept your mind in a place & came here without one,, if you want to change something in Somalia and you did speak your mind they say "you're going back to where you came from, don't boss us around eventually we will tahreeb as you" .. If you look for a job they will say you won't find anything here
it is sad and confusing me since i came last June till today but i do believe now Somalia needs the people who live outside
Samira, first of thank you very much for reading and commenting, i appreciate the feedback:)
I definitely agree with you on Somalia needing it's expats now more than ever.I guess the struggle goes on in defending our place in every society we go including our own country Somalia. I'd love to hear more about your experiences inside Somalia, please email me anytime - suban.a.mohamed@gmail.com
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